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♥ Friday, August 26, 2016

Perhaps. Perhaps there are really things that I wanted to do. There are thoughts to achieve or to do something that crossed my mind before. But probably really because I think too much, too much that I start to push them away from my mind unknowingly. Therefore, there has never been a want.

I don't make plans. I don't have any plans. I don't like changes. I'm actually still at the same spot all along which I don't think is a good thing. I lost motivations. I wait for things to come to me and not work for it. Even typing out these doesn't makes me wanna do anything about it either.

I don't know what I want in life. People do talk to me about it. Like why don't you go further study or look for a better job out there. Those are suggestions. No ones really sit down and talk and plan my route with me. Because it's my life. People do not wanna interfere in. Decisions in life are made by yourself and you have to bear the consequences. I don't like to make decisions. I don't wanna get involve in other people life too. If someone ask me to make a decision for their life. If they should change a job etc. I can be giving my view but usually I'd say you have to make the decision yourself. I wouldn't say a yes or no. If things goes well then good if not they will probably blame you for it. I'm scared of making the wrong choices. I'm always hesitating. I don't even know whether what I'm doing now brings me to anywhere.

 I wish I know and can see into the future what will happen when I made a certain choice.

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